The Placeholder

I am too valuable to be a placeholder. Waiting in line without an end in sight is not my purpose. Patience is something of unlimited value but being a placeholder- a benchwarmer so to speak means that I am not out in the action progressing towards my ultimate goals. I will not allow my talents to go untapped.

After my weekend full of meeting new, exciting, and cultured people I realized that I too want to be confident in my own formed opinions.

I think television sucks and I don't know why people like spending so much of their time wasting it by watching CRAP! Seriously, I hate it. I would much rather read a good book, help a friend with a problem, or look at an interesting photograph rather than watch a show for 30 minutes which does nothing for my mind. I can understand some television programs, even South Park sometimes. Does that mean I watch it religiously? No. How do so many people have so much time to follow and watch 5 or more shows a week? I really don't get it. How is that for an opinion on something I feel passionately about? Am I better than anyone else who watches 5 shows a week? Absolutely not. Why? Because I didn't shower until 5:30 this evening. I am truly a bum in a lot of ways as well.

My Halloween was great! I spent it getting to know new people and hanging out with old friends.

Amy xoxo

"Princess Of China"
(feat. Rihanna)
by Coldplay

Ohhhhh...

[Chris Martin:]
Once upon a time somebody ran
Somebody ran away saying fast as I can
I've got to go... got to go

Once upon a time we fell apart
You're holding in your hands the two Halves of my heart
Ohhhhh, ohhhhh!

Ohhhhh...

[Rihanna:]
Once upon a time, we burn bright
Now all we ever seem to do is fight
On and on...
And on and on and on...

Once upon a time on the same side.
Once upon a time on the same side, the same game
And why'd you have to go, have to go and throw it all on my fame

[Chorus:]
I could've been a Princess, You'd be a King
Could've had a castle, and worn a ring
But no, you let me go

I could've been a Princess, You'd be a king
Could've had a castle, and worn a ring
But no, you let me go

And stole my star

[Beat Break]

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
You stole my star la, la la la la laaaaaa

Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh
Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh

[Outro:]
Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me...

The fourth house on the right

Today we spent two hours going over all the home products in the store. I started working at a new place this week! Am I excited? Excited to be away from my previous place of employment and glad to be on to something more suited for my skill set. This is not the end of the road for me. I for sure want to get my Master's Degree in Art and my teaching certificate in the near future- just not sure how near yet.

Jack took me out on another art related date- twice in two nights! Jack is great. It doesn't feel like we are casually dating, it feels more like we are best friends and that's what I like about it... but maybe that's the definition of casual dating? Being friends who like each other a little more than friends? We went to Park City and toured some of the art galleries there. My favorite was the Fatali photography studio. Yes there were girls oogling over my outfit but that wasn't why I liked the art, check out the website and you will see for yourself. http://www.fatali.com/index2.php

Adam invited us to a haunted house afterwards where our friend Matt's friend does a homemade version. It reminded me of the time when my sixth grade class made a haunted house to raise money for our Cali trip when all the other loser classes went to the Grand Canyon...So for something produced in a house, this haunted house was great! I was scared and ended up leaving with bruises due to others who were scared and stepped on me.

The night ended with me in a hot tub (at my own will) so I would call the night a success.

Amy xoxo

"Seamless"
Erin McKeown

we are tiny when held against the sky
flat like a hand
we are fused you and i
what do i care how seamless is the line
where we begin and end?

now we are roiled and ruled apart by lines
cracked like a note
we find fault where nothing lies
how can we know that
apocalypse and bliss
are truly seamless?

Dracula

Last week attending the play The Tempest and now tonight it was Ballet West's Dracula- my soul is happy because it has been filled with art. I love it when a guy isn't scared to explore things he doesn't know that much about- something such as art. It's a world where not a lot of people connect with me in, but when they do, it's awesome.

Amy xoxo

"A Boundless Moment"
Robert Frost

He halted in the wind, and -- what was that
Far in the maples, pale, but not a ghost?
He stood there bringing March against his thought,
And yet too ready to believe the most.

"Oh, that's the Paradise-in-bloom," I said;
And truly it was fair enough for flowers
had we but in us to assume in march
Such white luxuriance of May for ours.

We stood a moment so in a strange world,
Myself as one his own pretense deceives;
And then I said the truth (and we moved on).
A young beech clinging to its last year's leaves.

Mullet Bullet

Ether 12:6
"And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith."

How interesting that I would recite this scripture during my talk on Sunday and then have it become so applicable to my life today.

Photo taken without Jack's consent

Photo taken with Jack's consent

Amy, Jack & Jonathan

aka Kit, Jav & Joe during bowling

Two questions of the night- one talked about with my blessing, the other was discussed with my hands over my ears (you guess which one).

Is it ok to eat someone aka cannibalism?

Is it ok for a straight girl with a boyfriend to wear her hair mullet style?

Stimulating conversations.

Amy xoxo

"Stanley Climbfall"
Lifehouse

quiet
seems like an honest world
you're begging for the beggars' bread when the money's out
stand climb and fall
carry the world
can't carry your own
when the world is falling down
and another breaks then another falls
for losers always make the winner's day
stand climb and fall
carry the weight
can't carry it all
are you falling
are you faking
are you healing
are you breaking
am I burning
am I only melting
these diamonds in the making
and I'm at the end of myself
anything you want
and nothing seems to satisfy me
take anything you want
quiet
a sound you know so well
you're living just to make it through another day
stand climb and fall
carry the world
can't carry your own
are you falling
are you faking
are you healing
are you breaking
am I burning
am I only melting
these diamonds in the making
and I'm at the end of myself
anything you want
and nothing seems to satisfy me
take anything you want
take anything you want
take anything you want
quiet

Ps Yes it is ok for a girl to wear a mullet!

Delta wave

My new haircut with bangs

fyi nothing on my face photoshopped, I just darkened the edges

You can never go back. Everything you have done, you must accept the consequences of those actions. I remember hearing those words echo in my mind so distinctly months ago. I remember thinking, yes, that applies to me, but not right now because I don't want it to. But consequences apply to us every day whether we choose to live in the clouds or down to earth. I have chosen both at times. My reality now is a mixture of accepting those consequences and forging my own path, looking to create my own destiny full of happiness. I know what will make me happy. I know myself the best- I know my faults, weaknesses, my deepest secrets (there are a lot), my loathsome habits, and my enviable strengths. I will never be the girl with the biggest boobs, flattest stomach, or best hair.

November 15, 2010
"...I copied and sent one of the posts to my email account. Diane said she is in a wheelchair and had use of one of her limbs. She is alone most days...
Loneliness. It's a terrible thing."

October 21, 2011
"I like to think that I was the torch in that darkness sometimes...'The only thing that makes the emptiness bearable is each other.' You are the place I feel peace and at home. I wish I could be that light for you again."

May 15, 2011
"Yes, we can always be & always do better- but I love you for who you are now."

October 30, 2010
"I often wonder what besides art will make me happy. Today was one of those days when I didn't have to think- I just let the happiness flow... I've never had a deeper connection with anyone else. We hardly ever fight... I'm scared to lose him knowing all of these amazing things... I've never been happier with someone..."

What is my point to these endless ramblings? Do I wish sometimes? Do I dream about things I do not have but want, need and desire? Absolutely, yes, every day! If you want something, make it happen and accept the consequences of that something. Some things in life turn out better than your best dreams. And some things, most things... the BEST things- those take time. Because in the end, that patience with a little bit of struggling- those are the things that remain treasured because fire is a powerful element.

Amy xoxo

"Neighborhood #3 (Power Out)"
Arcade Fire

I woke up with the power out, not really somethin to shout about. ice
has covered up my parents hands, don't have any dreams don't have any
plans. i went out into the night, i went out to find some light. kids
are swingin from the power lines, nobody's home so nobody minds
i woke up on the darkest night, neighbors all were shouting that they
found the light - "we found the light." - shadows jumpin' all over my
walls, some of them big, some of them small. i went out into the night
i went out to pick a fight with anyone. light a candle for the kids,
jesus christ don't keep it hid!
ice has covered up my parents eyes, don't know how to see, don't know
how to cry. growin' up in some strange storm, nobody's cold, nobody's
warm. i went out into the night, i went out to find some light. kids
are dyin' out in the snow, look at them go - look at them go!
and the power's out in the heart of man, take it from your heart put
it in your hand. what's the plan? what's the plan? is it a dream? is
it a lie? i think i'll let you deceide. just light a candle for the
kids, jesus christ don't keep it hid! cause nothing's hid, from us
kids! you ain't foolin' nobody - with the lights out! and the power's
out in the heart of man, take it from your heart put it in your hand.
and there's something wrong in the heart of man, you take it from your
heart and put it in your hand! where'd you go?!

Ps Round 57 of the nightmares. Talk about things you do and do not have control over. Dear pillow, please bring me some comfort tonight.

Fainting spells

I feel like I am the exact opposite of myself. I feel like I am watching my life through someone else's eyes. I feel hallow. I feel like every exacting and deliberate move on my part only skims the surface of what really matters. What really matters? I am struggling but not from lack of air- I feel like I have too much! It's hard for me to think so I create mindless tasks to complete. Everyday it's the same food, the same people, the same problems- the same tasks. I am not looking for the kind of adventure which sets me in a world of mystery. I am looking for the deeper meaning in everything.

I am upset. I feel like I could have created a better life for myself up to this point. It's not that I necessarily regret the choices I've made, I just feel like in a lot of situations I've been careless when I thought I was being carefree. I've been careless with my heart allowing people into my life who had no business being there.

It's hard to continue on a path I feel like I was never meant to travel on. That's not to say the things that I am doing now are not worthy and righteous. I do think there are things I am great on! I am saying that I didn't see myself single at 26. That is not to say I feel like this is the end of the road for me... what I am saying is that I have planned my life multiple times, thought I was on one path, only to realize I had no idea what I was doing and oops, I am doing something completely different that what I thought I would be doing. I am ok with change. I would just like a glimpse of some sort of landmark in my near vacinity.

I hope these struggles will make my future ones easier because guess what- I am going to beat this slump I am in! I have said it may times and I will say it again, I am grateful for my struggles. Maybe all of this is to see if I am super patient enough to wait for a super hot husband. Yes, I think that's what all of this means.

I can learn from my past situations and resolve to live better- with more patience, persistence, forgiveness and strength.

This picture is from a friend of a friend's fb page. They titled it "Romantic Artists".

I think it fits perfectly with this song.

Amy xoxo

"Fade Into You"
Mazzy Star

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go blind
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there.

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then smiles cover your heart

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
I think it's strange you never knew

Ps Onward! All in the valley of death as Tennyson would say.

Sad, lovely, beautiful

I've been thinking about investments a lot and not of the financial kind. I have been thinking about how I choose to invest my time. This has also trickled into how others choose as well and the ideas have been fascinating to me. How do we make time to play Angry Birds but we don't have time to read our Scriptures? Why do we make excuses for ourselves? This next week I am taking a hiatus from my blog in order to take care of the things that really need my time. I look forward to chatting with you in a week!

Amy xoxo

"If You Wanna"
by The Vaccines

I don't want to wake up in the morning
But I've got to face the day
That's what all the friends I do not like as much as you say

I don't want to do things independently
But I can't make you stay
That's what all the friends I do not like as much as you say

But if you wanna come back it's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back
Do you wanna come back? It's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back to me

I don't want to see you with another guy
But the fact is that I may
That's what all the friends I do not like as much as you say

Give it just another couple months or so
Then you'll be ok
That's what all the friends I do not like as much as you say

Alone, all alone
I am on my own
Alone, all alone
I am on my own

But if you wanna come back it's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back
Do you wanna come back? It's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back to me

If you wanna come back it's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back
Do you wanna come back? It's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back to me
Do you wanna come back? It's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back to me
Do you wanna come back? It's alright, it's alright
It's alright if you wanna come back to me

Ps Gone to invest my time wisely

Heart skipped a beat

No one sees what I see.

The coral cup shapped rose trio rising up on its branch against the country blue house post. Love the scenic diversity along my walk. Red oval-shaped leaves on a vine twisting and suffocating the light post. I passed an Asian figurine, Jesus with outstretched arms, and a plethora of brightly colored kids toys- Amy toys. Can you see what I see? Yes, but will you feel the same?

I am sorry I have been writing about a bunch of nothings lately. My life has been deep and profound in a lot of ways, but in ways I feel like I can't share with a lot of people- even the people I want to share them with... I am in a funk right now... but definitely one of endless possibilities and I recognize that this is LIFE! Full of struggles and only I cannot creat my own happiness. I am living in the now, hoping for a better future and working hard now to ensure I am one happy girl. After all, we only get one life to live.

Amy xoxo

"Animal"
by Miike Snow

There was a time when my world was filled
with darkness, darkness, darkness
then I stopped dreaming now i supposed to fill
it up with something, something, something
in your I see the eyes of somebody knew before
long, long, long ago
but im still trying to make my mind up,
am i free or am i tied up

Chrous
I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still, I'm still an animal
Nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip
I'm still an animal

Verse 2
There is a hole and i tried to fill up with money, money , money
But it gets bigger to your hopes is always

Running,running,running

In your eyes I see the eyes of somebody of who could be strong
Tell me if I'm wrong
And now I'm pulling your disguise up are you free or are you tied up

Chrous
I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still I'm still an animal
Nobody knows it but me when I slip
I'm still an animal

I change shapes just to hide in this place
But I'm still I'm still an animal
Nobody knows it but me when I slip, yeah I slip
I'm still an animal

[Instrumental break:]

I change shapes just to hide in this place
But I'm still, I'm still an animal
Nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip
I'm still an animal (x2)

Ps The Fall Favorites exchange party was so much fun tonight. I have the most amazing girlfriends!

C'est la vie

I never saw that one coming.

And I took the high score for our second bowling game- 128... here is my victory dance with Dave.

Amy xoxo

"Home"

by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma & Pa
Not the way that I do love you

Holy roly, me, oh my, you’re the apple of my eye
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Man, oh man, you’re my best friend, I scream it to the nothingness
There ain’t nothin’ that I need

Well, hot & heavy, pumpkin pie, chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
There ain’t nothin’ please me more than you

Chorus:
Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you
(2x)
La la la la, take me Home
Baby, I’m coming Home

I’ll follow you into the park, through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you

Moats & boats & waterfalls, alley ways & pay phone calls
I’ve been everywhere with you

That’s true

We laugh until we think we’ll die, barefoot on a summer night
Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you

And in the sticks we’re running free like it’s only you and me
Geez, you’re something to see.

Chorus

“Jade?”
“Alexander?”
“Do you remember that day you fell out of my window?”
“I sure do, you came jumping out after me.”
“Well, you fell on the concrete and nearly broke your ass and you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you off to the hospital. Do you remember that?”
“Yes, I do.”
“Well, there’s something I never told you about that night.”
“What didn’t you tell me?”
“While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was going to be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you and I never told you ‘til just now.”
“Now I know.”

Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is whenever I’m with you
Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is when I’m alone with you

Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you

Ahh, Home
Yes, I am Home
Home is when I’m alone with you.

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my Ma & Pa
Moats & boats & waterfalls & pay phone calls

Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is wherever I’m with you
Ahh, Home
Let me come Home
Home is when I’m alone with you

Ps I'll meet you in the middle

Symbiosis

Lately every day has been a struggle to maintain a positive outlook on my future. There is no formula for life. The connections I make with people is what life is about. We are all very connected. I am powerful and I can affect those who are around me.

I wish I had more to say. I could tell you about my night full of sushi, Urban Outfitters, Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey, a Deadmau5 concert on dvd and ending it all with the last of the USA soccer match... What did you do this Tuesday? For some reason I got ready like it was a Friday night- it just felt like a Friday night.

Well, I want you to know that I am here for you whether you think I am or not- I think about you! I pray for you, I wish for your wishes and deepest desires. I think your prayers make it farther but I still try. You probably don't think I could possibly thinking about you, but I am and I do. Frequently. Know that you are capable of more than you think you are. Move beyond yourself.

Amy xoxo

"She Is Love"
by Parachute

I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.

She's all I need.

Well I had my ways, they were all in vain,
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same, all my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.

And when that world slows down, dear.
And when those stars burn out, here.
Oh she'll be here, yes she'll be here,
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love. love.

She is love, and she is all I need,
She is love, and she is all I need,
She is love, and she is all I need.

Ps Yes, that means you silly!

Snake skin

Once a month my ward volunteers at the Utah Food Bank. I feel like slime if I don't go- who can't donate 2 hours once a month to a cause like this? Not me and that's why I do it. That and there are cute boys using their muscles and there is free pizza afterwards- geez so judge me!

After the FHE activity, a few of my friends in the ward gathered for a hot tub get-together per my request for a repeat from last month. The sauna was the best part- it felt like a repeat from The Cliffs last Monday! I could get used to this :)

Amy xoxo

"Think You Can Wait"
by The National

I was drifting, crying
I was looking for an island
I was slipping under
I'll pull the devil down with me one way or another

I'm out of my mind; think you can wait?
I'm way off the line; think you can wait?

We've been running a sleepless run
Been away from the baby way too long
We've been holding a good night gone
We've been losing our exits one by one

I'm out of my mind; think you can wait?
I'm way off the line; think you can wait?

Did I?
(all I have is all)
Think you can wait?
Did I?
(all I have is all)
Think you can wait?

What I'm thinking is simple
I'll sell apples and ice water at the temple
I won't make trouble
I'll pull the devil down with me one way or another

We've been running a sleepless run
Been away from the baby way too long
We've been holding a good night gone
We've been losing our exits one by one

I'll try.
I'll try, but I couldn't be better.
(all I have is all)
I'll try, but I couldn't be better.
(all I have is all)
I'll try, but I couldn't be better.
(all I have is all)

Ps The sauna was therapeutic

Stab

Photoshopped B&W

Not photoshopped

Today was a relief- Fridays seem to possess that calming power. After work tonight, Jack picked me up and we went to Layton to have ribs and shrimp with his 2 married friends + Andrew who came later. We watched a movie and ate ice cream- all pretty generic things but that's not how the night felt. It felt like name brand. After the night ended, Jack was awesome enough to drive me to Mike and Susan's in Sugarhouse where I spent the night to make sure their daughter Serra (who I call my cousin) didn't get in trouble. Ah, cable television, how I have missed you.

Amy xoxo

"If I Ever Feel Better"
by Phoenix

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that's fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Ps I'll call you when it's over

I won't quit

Today was a hard day. The weather was terrible- rainy and windy with a little slush snow mixed in there. It was the day I had an interview and went to a career fair (major anxiety). It wasn't a very fun day, but I pushed through it. At the end of my workday, I crawled into bed never to be seen by anyone for the rest of the night.

But tomorrow is Friday and those are the best kinds of days!

Amy xoxo

"My Body"
Young the Giant

Stop! the train is riding
Down to the station
Where you lived
When we were school kids

Hey! the rails are gone now
And I am falling down
Fools in a spiral
Round this town of steel

My body tells me no
But I won't quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more
My body tells me no
But I won't quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more

Stop! the train is riding
Down to the station
Where I lived
When I was a cool kid

Hey! is it my fault that
The fallen embers burn
Down in a spiral
Round your crown of thieves

My body tells me no
But I won't quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more
My body tells me no
But I wont quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more

It rides out of town

Oh, it's my road
It's my road
It's my road
It's my road
It's my road
It's my road

And it's my war
It's my war
It's my war
It's my war

His eyes are open
His eyes are open

Oh, cause I want more
I want more
I want more

His eyes are open
His eyes are open

Hey, hey, hey-

My body tells me no
But I won't quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more
My body tells me no
But I wont quit
Cause I want more
Cause I want more

It rides out of town

Ps Take out in my bed would be nice

Follow your heart

Kyle and I used to play a game where we would describe what we were wearing to each other via text. I think the person with the most descriptive outfit would win. Every week I want to feature at least one outfit I've put together because like I've said before, my outfits are like my art projects that get torn down daily.

I feel like I do this pose a lot- I'm sorry, I'm just trying to show you what I'm wearing without looking too creepy.

So today I wore congac colored knee length leather boots, white leggings, watercolor floral print chiffon dress with cotton razor backed V neck top over a periwinkle long sleeved basic cotton tee completed with long red beaded necklace and red skinny headband. I know I am missing a few - dashes and , commas but you can deal, right?

Today the sad news spread that Steve Jobs passed away.

I love this picture of Steve Jobs because I think it shows his passion for what he did.

"Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on."

He has changed the way we all think and interact with each other.

Amy xoxo

"I Follow Rivers"
by Lykke Li

Oh I beg you, can I follow
Oh I ask you why not always
Be the ocean where unravel
Be my only, be the water and I'm wading
You're my river running high, run deep run wild

[Chorus]
I I follow, I follow you deep sea baby
I follow you
I I follow, I follow you, dark boom honey
I follow you

He a message, I'm the runner
He's the rebel, I'm the daughter waiting for you
You're my river running high, run deep run wild

[Chorus]
I I follow, I follow you deep sea baby
I follow you
I I follow, I follow you, dark boom honey
I follow you

You're my river running high, run deep run wild
I, I follow, I follow you deep sea baby,
I follow you
I, I follow, I follow you, dark boom honey,
I follow you
I, I follow, I follow you deeps sea baby,
I follow you
I, I follow, I follow you, dark boom honey,
I follow you

[Repeat till end]
I, I follow, I follow you deeps sea baby,
I follow you
I, I follow, I follow you, dark boom honey,
I follow you

Ps I won't settle

Skinny Love

Last night was magical. It was a much needed escape with my lovely friends. Jack and I rode to Snowbird with Matt and Kristine after we met up at Lesley's house with everyone to carpool. I love living in the Avenues because you can walk anywhere! Jack and I had a lovely walk over together. Sounds like I am telling this story backwards...

So we went to The Cliffs at Snowbird. The spa was incredible- a steam room, sauna, hot tub and heated salt water pool greeted us. It rained and we were on the roof open to the elements- it was a nice contrast to be submerged in the warm water with the cool weather circling around us. We sipped on delicious herbal tea and talked about the small things and the big things dreams that are important to us. Everyone of us had a fun, relaxing time away. Away from everything.

After The Cliffs, we went to dinner at the Porcupine Pub & Grille in Cottonwoods Heights. Oktoberfest is going on right now so all of the staff have to wear these cute outfits including lederhos'n with suspenders! haha loves it! Dinner was good and visiting with everyone was even better. I noticed everyone got something different which was a feat considering there were about 15 people there to celebrate dear Lesley's big 2-9 B-day! I notice those kinds of details that most find insignificant/annoying/drab/etc. I hope I never get that way- where I start to not care about things that can/should/maybe interesting...

Amy xoxo

"Skinny Love"
by Bon Iver

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt, we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in this moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
We suckled on the hope in lite brassieres
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind

And now all your love is wasted
And who the hell was I?
I'm breaking at the bridges
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?
Ooh, ooh

Ps A physical + mental escape = a much needed amazingly good time

Faraday

Last night I was filing some paperwork and I came across this quote from a series of handwritten things I was working on for an FHE thought I delivered several months ago. "At times all of us are called upon to stretch ourselves and do more than we think we can... each of you will need to have faith and confidence to move forward."

I can do hard things.

Answer time!

I get the ideas for songs on my blog from listening to the radio namely Pandora online, Alt Nation on satelite/xm, and from local radio stations while driving in my car. Most of the time I'll post a song when it hits a nerve- I'm like, yup! that's my song for today. But sometimes I'll post a song for one line I like or the tune, etc. So there you go!

Amy xoxo

"Look What You've Done"
by Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Ps And the job search continues