A bowling ball

A few months ago I started having dreams about a baby. I didn't tell anyone at first because they weren't frequent and well, I am 27 and not married- these dreams couldn't possibly be about MY future child. I instantly knew it was about my sister. I was sure of it then. I went to the temple last month and had a unique experience there. I vaguely expressed what had happened to Adam because the experience was so foreign and abstract to me. Not that babies are necessarily foreign, they are a little, but I mean to say that the experience in that moment in the temple was very abstract and wasn't clearly expressed to me so how could I in turn express that experience to another? I don't think I was necessarily meant to. But again, I felt like something was whispering to me of a future child to come into my life. I immediately thought of my sister.

The idea of me having children is always something I have suppressed in order to pursue other things. Not to say having children is not a worthy goal- something I know I will be able to achieve in this life or the next and I will be joyed! Of course I want to be a mother, I have never seen my life deviating from that course. But I always pictured myself having kids later on in life. And I was right! Let's face it, I'm not having a kid when I'm 27- it could be possible at age 28. By my standards, I am feeling great about where I am at as far as my age and not having kids quite yet.

I had another baby dream last night. I was at the SLC airport but in the parking garage under The Gateway mall. Every turn into another row of parking revealed a black sign with white writing above the row of vehicles. Every turn of my vehicle (I was in a truck) revealed my last name with the number two next to it. It was like crossing a cattle guard and having the sign reveal how many people in the vehicle there were. Two. But there was only me? I remember parking and exiting and my Mom came to me. She put both of her hands on my belly. I looked down and saw I was extremely pregnant. But it took my Mother acknowledging my status to clue me in to this fact. Two.

Amy xoxo