No One

I've had a lot of questions swirling in my mind lately. Mostly I am at peace in my every day life but I feel like with peace, contentment can easily follow. But really, how do people have a full time job, workout, eat right, and have successful relationships? It's a hard balance for me.
This week I started working out every day. I am active every day because of my job but I don't feel like it's enough. I like to run at least a mile every day because running clears my mind and centers my purpose. It's me time and I feel like that's something everyone needs. I also feel like with me getting into more of a routine, doing more of my art would allow me to open my creative mind and be more explorative (DUH, right?). So I need to set more time aside for that.
I had an eye-opening experience this week. I saw my friend Chris on Saturday. We dated for a bit in college... yes, that Chris. Just wanted to get you up to speed. He said I've been spoiled my whole life when it has come to guys loving me. I am not as easily offended anymore and especially not when someone says something which it truthful about me. It has always been easy for me to fall in love and to be loved by others. But why is that?
My friend Courtney and I have always admired things about each other. She admires my ability to love and be loved. I admire her intelligence and career path. We are both so different but we appreciate what we have and what we can learn from one another. We have both grown so much from when we first met each other! We watched Midnight in Paris last night. Ah, Pair-ee. So gorgeous. I'm sure it's the fantasy I am in love with. Once I get there and the rose-colored glasses have been removed from my memory I am sure I will be flooded with a sad dose of reality.

I've been having weird dreams lately. One I had earlier this week was about a couple I knew a while back. I was actually great friends with them when I was married. In my dream, they got divorced. I asked them what happened and she was quick to respond with, "Well, he was only boyfriend material. When we were married, it was like we were dating." In my dream it made sense to me, but awake that perspective only confuses me. Then, to make it worse I was dating her ex-husband. It was like we were best friends, not dating. So is that what she meant when she was trying to talk to me about the failure of their relationship? It was weird. I have never felt a romantic connection to this dude btw.
Then, this morning I dreamt about a white cat. I could communicate to this cat without words. It was always around me whenever I went. I went outside one night and there was a tiger in the distance near my old house in Phoenix (near the condos if you know where those are located across the street). So I took the cat and hid in a neighbor's front yard down the cul-de-sac. I wished for a blanket and then BOOM I had one (Adam hates the word BOOM for some reason. Maybe it sounds like something a cocky guy would say? But I am not a guy so he should get over it.).

A lot of thoughts, but you didn't come here for boringness.

Amy xoxo