Hungry runner girl

Every once in a while there comes a day when one of two things happens; either it is a day not worth mentioning or it is an extraordinary day but it is too precious to mention in a public forum such as this. Most of the time my days manage somewhere in between but today is one of the former. Because of this fact I will revert this post to something I have been wanting to share with you. It may be a bit scandalous to share, think and feel on my part but I am willing to be open with you. Besides, I don't think the players will mind that much given our circumstances now and we all know what I have to say is the truth.

In October, my friends Steph, Rach and I went out to eat at a place called Nachos Libre. The chips are deliciously homemade. On our ride there together, Steph and Rach pressed me about my relationship with Jack- but to be clear it was all harmless girl talk. Steph boldly asked me, "Is Jack a rebound from Adam?" I was surprised Steph would be so assertive but I was refreshed to hear an honest question- not because it was surprising to hear honesty coming from Stephanie but because girls in general are such snakes! I felt like as my friend she deserved an honest answer but she also deserved the truth because of her boldness. I told her, "No, Jack was not a rebound because if anyone was a classic rebound, that title would have gone to Lance or even Ryan because they were guys I dated even before Jack. And this is only my opinion so maybe Jack is a rebound, but I really don't feel that way nor do I think so."

At the time I didn't realize the irony of that question in that car ride and at the dinner table. Last week while I was in Sandy taking care of Snickers, I had a revelation in the comfort of my warm shower... do you ever do some of your best thinking in your shower? That was not my revelation- this was...

Before Jack, before Lance, and before Ryan there was one rebound to rule them all. Stephanie and Rachel were my rebound girls. Running with them was the best outlet for me after my break-up with Adam. I thought our friendship would last but sadly, it did not. Maybe they see it differently, but I felt like I was putting in the effort to a one sided relationship. That and I feel like Stephanie saw me happy with Jack and wanted that for herself. I wish nothing but happiness for Stephanie when it comes to love. Sometimes relationships don't work out simply because they are not meant to be. Steph and Rach gave me what I needed in a very difficult time and I am so grateful to them for that. My life is a bit emptier without my girlfriends but I can't make someone want to spend time with me who doesn't feel like putting in that kind of effort. Time to move on. I'm cleaning house in so many ways.

Amy xoxo

"Break The Spell"
By Daughtry

Like a moth into a flame,
I'm hypnotized,
And like a stone,
I'm paralyzed cause I can't look away,

You found your way under my skin,
And I'm tryin' not to love you,
But I hate the way I keep on givin'

Into you, like I always do,
No matter how I try,
Or maybe could it be,
That you're the part of me,
That's keeping me alive?

How am I supposed to break this spell you got me under,
I'm so addicted to the pain,
Got your poison running through my veins,

The way you pull me in,
The way you chew me up,
The way you spit me out,
I keep coming back, I can't get enough,
I can't go without you,

I could fight you 'til the end,
But I will lose you if I win,
So I guess I'll just keep on givin'

Into you, like I always do,
No matter how I try,
Or maybe could it be,
That you're the part of me,
That's keeping me alive?

How am I supposed to break this spell you got me under,
I'm so addicted to the pain,
Got your poison running through my veins,

The way you pull me in,
The way you chew me up,
The way you spit me out,
I keep coming back, I can't get enough,
I can't go without you,

This feeling is far from sober,
Its beauty buried deep inside,
You're the only one who gets me high,
And I know it's far from over,

As you can see you're the part of me,
That's keeping me alive

How am I supposed to break this spell you got me under,
I'm so addicted to the pain,
Got your poison running through my veins,

The way you pull me in,
The way you chew me up,
The way you spit me out,
I keep coming back, I can't get enough,
I can't go without,

The way you pull me in,
The way you chew me up,
The way you spit me out,
I keep coming back, I can't get enough,
I can't go without,

I keep coming back, I can't get enough,
I can't go without, you.