Lemming

Work again. Pizza again. Adam again. Dexter.

Again, nothing to complain about.

Have you ever watched Dexter? It's twisted in a lot of ways, especially this season where Julia Stiles is an escaped rape victim seeking revenge on her attackers. Some of this stuff is hard for me to watch not necessarily because of the content which I am seeing right before my eyes, but because of the feeling those images awaken inside of me. I am not a rape victim but I have allowed myself to be in the position of the weak female- the one who lets the guy call the shots and exercise his control in an abusive way. The best part about being in control of my life now is that I get to call the shots. There is no one person who directly controls what I do. When I allow people to take a strong position in my life, it's because I have allowed them that control- not because they have taken it from me.

Amy xoxo

"This Is Why We Fight"

by The Decemberists

Come the war
Come the avarice
Come the war
Come hell

Come attrition
Come the reek of bones
Come attrition
Come hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
And this is why
This is why we fight

When we die
We will die
With our arms unbound

And this is why
This is why
Why we fight
Come hell

Bride of quiet
Bride of all unquiet things
Bride of quiet
Bride of hell

Come the archers
Come the infantry
Come the archers
Of hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
This is why
This is why we fight

And when we die
We will die
With our arms unbound
And this is why
This is why we fight
Come hell
Come hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
This is why
This is why we fight

When we die
We will die with our arms unbound
And this is why
This is why we fight

So come to me
Come to me now
Lay your arms around me
And this is why
This is why
We fight
Come hell
Come hell
Come hell
Come hell