Lessons in love

When I think about it, every guy who has ever tried to woo me has failed. Every relationship I have had has failed and that is why I am single. Now this is not a pessimistic post, quite the opposite. Out of the ashes of those failed attempts of togetherness, I have learned quite a bit about love and most of all, I have learned a lot about myself.
One lesson I have learned is to enjoy the moment. I've thought about the future too many times in my life and I've let the present pass me by. Yesterday was a perfect example of me exercising my right to be joyful. I know this will sound weak in comparisson to other events in my life but it is a stepping stone which is pivotal for me. I went to my church's coed softball tournament yesterday. I was watching the game when my friend Lance picked me up and started spinning me around in his arms. Lots of times in college, I would worry about who I was flirting with in front of others because I didn't want to mark myself taken- even when I was dating someone. This was a sign of immaturity on my part with relationships. Yesterday, I didn't care who saw Lance spinning me. I was happy in that moment and I allowed myself to feel that joy and no one could take diminish that. I think I am maturing personally by becoming more assertive but I also think my perception of relationships is also entering a world of mature love.

Amy xoxo

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"What About Now"
by Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?