Outsider's eyes

This weekend I learned A LOT A LOT. I viewed the world around me using what felt like a different set of eyes. An outsider's eyes. And because of this new set, I was able to see my world from a different perspective.
My friend Randy came to visit me from Arizona and my friend Lauren came to visit me from Idaho and both happened to be on the same weekend. I cannot say I did not know that the combination of those two friends would be bad to mix in one weekend, but I proceeded with the festivities anyways. And let me say, everything I am writing here are things I have and would share with them...
I feel bad for Randy and Lauren. I know they wouldn't want my pity but I am feeling it for them anyways and I am allowed to feel that just like they are allowed to not want it. Life challenges have been cruel to them in some ways, but their circumstances and feelings now are all self induced. I don't believe they are really happy. Why? I believe they are in a place far away from their God. I am not talking about religion here, I am talking about their relationship with our Heavenly Father. And believe me, this post is not a condemning one of how horrible they are and how I am the ideal. We are all at different stages in life and I have tasted the moments that they are swimming through now. I believe that the most important thing in this life is to figure out what God wants from you! I don't think they have found that spot yet... not that it is a stagnant area where one comes, meet and sleeps comfortably... I believe you find that spot in your heart where you feel genuine peace and you carry it with you through your life experiences. I hope we can all find that.
I feel like I have found a huge piece in my puzzle this weekend. I realized that my grestest goal in life is to inspire others. Pretty simple yet profound for me! This new goal is the goal to which everything else connects. Everything I do is for an ultimate purpose. I want to make others happy because I am happy! I love my life. No, I don't have an awesome job that I look forward to everyday but I've got this artistic ability that keeps me interested in solving the problem of creating something new everyday. No I don't have a significant other but I have awesome family and friends that love me and show me that love everyday. My friend Jordan said, "I'm not single nor taken. I'm reserved for the one who's deserving of me." I am patient, I am waiting and for now I am making myself into the most awesome babe that I can be!
So my other revelation I had over the weekend was about my friend Matt. I have known Matt for a little under a year now. I met him in my single's ward at church. We were on the same committee which produced fun activities for all of the singles on Monday nights. What I didn't take the time to find out was how amazing Matt is. Stephanie invited him to Lagoon on Saturday to hang out with us and he is a stud! Matt is passionate about his career, he is intelligent, he likes to stay active and run which he did in college on the U of U team, his sense of humor is witty never boring and gross and he is kind. So needless to say, Matt is unique and very appealing. I am glad him and Stephanie got a chance to get to know each other better too.
I am glad I had this weekend to learn a lot of new things. Most of the lessons I learned were from guys in my life, some old, some new, some mentioned here and some too precious to mention here. Just know that my heart is full of joy and I am very happy. I am happy because I choose to be.

Amy's week of fun!
311/Sublime with Rome concert
The Goo Goo Dolls/Michelle Branch/Parachute concert
3 day weekend!
Trip to Idaho!!

Amy xoxo

"Something To Die For"
by The Sounds

Working for another hour tonight
Staring at the wall and let the time just pass me by
You might think you know me, but it's all just a face
Trying to ignore when people screaming my name
(Screaming my name)

Walking by a house with colorful lights
There's a sign, an invitation from the woman inside
Talk about your boyfriend, talk about your wife
It's just a different way of living your life

When something's right, then something is worth to die for
When I feel that something is wrong, then something is worth to fight for

Don't say goodbye, just leave an open door
I wanna hear you say, you give me something to die for

Searching for another reason to stay
Slowly my regrets are fading away
You leave me on my own to find out what's real
You say you want your freedom, but it's not how I feel

When something's right, then something is worth to die for
When I feel that something is wrong, then something is worth to fight for

Don't say goodbye, just leave an open door
I wanna hear you say, you give me something to die for
When I feel that something is right
You give me something to die for

When something's right, then something is worth to die for
When I feel that something is wrong, then something is worth to fight for
When something's right, then something is worth to die for
When I feel that something is wrong, then something is worth to fight for

Don't say goodbye, just leave an open door
I wanna hear you say, you give me something to die for
I wanna hear you say, you give me something to die for
I wanna hear you say, you give me something to die for