Dudes and Dudettes

It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about me, everyone will always build their own perception of me based on truths, half-truths and falsities. Some opinions I can influence, but controlling anyone except for myself is something which I cannot. I would rather be thought of as the girl who flirts/dates a lot than the girl who is closed off to the world. I cannot help but be open to the pleasure as well as the pain. I will not change myself to conform to someone else's ideals. I know what is right for myself and I have the freedom to choose. I choose to be cautious in my decorum, my flirtatious behavior, and in extending myself beyond what I can afford to give up, but I will still allow myself to be open to the adventures in heartache. Let the frenzy of the optimist begin.

I took a vacation day because my friend Chris was in town to visit me. We went to my favorite breakfast food resturant, Millcreek Cafe in SLC. They always have a special of the day which makes my belly so happy to consume. I ordered the banana walnut pancakes with bacon and eggs. I was thinking, if you switch the first letters of banana walnut to wanana balnut it sounds really funny. This is how my mind works, go with it... a never ending free flowing stream of thoughts where everything is connected. I am sure you are connected in my brain sandwiched somewhere between apples and lingere.

Amy xoxo

"Somewhere I Belong"
by Linkin Park

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Ps I saw a lot of hot dads at the pool today. Kudos to them for staying hot! Btw, if you are thinking homewrecker, let me help mold your opinion and say no, I would never break up a marriage because of a lustful thought.