Jack's Mannequin

I can't believe the weekend rushed by so fast. It was like a giant pile of leaves and some kid just climbed up my happy tree and jumped onto the pile, distributing the leaves all over my nice, clean yard. This scenario would work if I had a yard and if there was a tree with big, Fall-like orange and yellow leaves. Have you noticed the weather feeling cooler? I can always feel the Fall coming and it starts with the air. I'd like to think there is some sort of magic to be witnessed around this time of year. I will keep my optimistic ears open in the hopes of hearing something.

Chris and I had a fun time eating out, going to events like the Dew Tour and Avenues Street Fair and doing activities like going to a waterpark, shopping and seeing the movie Contagion on the iMAX screen. I was surprised at how easy it was to talk to Chris. I think the ease of communicating came from him more than it came from me. I am inclinded to say my Chrisy is all grown up. Before when we were in college, Chris was insecure. Forgive me for exposing the truth on my blog Christopher. That was the number two reason I couldn't continue dating him for the short time out of our long friendship in which we took a chance to date each other. The number one reason I couldn't date Chris still holds firm today- it's not right. I don't see our paths converging. It breaks my heart to feel love for someone but not in the way they want me to feel that love for them. There are so many people, guys in particular that I know I could have a happy life with. I can't simply love someone and expect a relationship to flourish out of that love. I need to be IN LOVE with someone, they need to inspire me on every level and we need to have similar goals so that we may have a common foundation in which to start and grow from together. Is this exposing too much about my life? Hopefully so, I think you're here to know more about me.

This picture is of Candace of http://www.candacejean.com/ I bought a print of hers at the Avenues Street Fair this weekend called The Five Feathers. I am so happy I asked Chris to buy this for me and told him I would pay him back since I didn't have any cash with me. Best purchase in a while! Funny thing, I love butterflies and the one on Candace's desk is no exception. I remember going to one of my favorite events, The Arizona Renissance Festival in February 2006. I really wanted this trio of brightly colored butterflies but I thought, what would I do with this piece? OOO now I know, as soon as I set up a mini art studio in my studio apartment, I will buy some sort of butterfly homage and set it close to my desk. I can't express to you how beautiful butterflies are to me.

If you want the juicy truth, it's that I'm doing well. I am working on a few smaller goals for myself such as starting and completing one art project a week :) My life will be changing a bit starting next week. Lauren sold her car a few weeks ago with the intention of moving shortly thereafter for PA to be closer to her family and sole support system. She can't move now because of the custody battle with her son which has now begun in ID. I received a prompting once and I won't ignore it for my own selfish comfort. I have decided to loan my car to Lauren for a while. She is traveling here to SLC this weekend and will be driving my car back to ID after that. I am glad my car will be of use to someone who needs it more than me. I'll be ok, I work and live within a mile of all that I need... grocery store, shopping mall, laundry room... And if anything, walking to and from work will help me feel productive since I can't run for a bit. I want to talk about my race on Saturday but I'm not ready to face those emotions and tell you how awful I did. There were two good things about the race which I can tell you about: 1) I had the company of my amazing friends and 2) I finished the race- no cheating which would have been easy to do. I guess I'm not really the easy way kind of girl. I am more of the fight my way to the death kind of girl. My race came back to me as I watched the movie, "The Way Back" with Jack last night. It's an excellent movie which I give two thumbs up. It reminded me, I won't ever give up.

Amy xoxo

"Black Sheep"
by Metric

Black sheep, come home
Black sheep, come home
Black sheep, come home

Hello again, friend of a friend
I knew you when
Our common goal was waiting for the world to end
Now that the truth is just a rule that you can bend
You crack the whip
Shape-shift and trick
The past again

I'll send you my love on a wire
Light you up every time
Everyone, ooh
Pulls away, ooh
From you

Got balls of steel
Got an automobile for a minimum wage
Got real estate, I'm buying it all up in outer space
Now that the truth is just a rule that you can bend
You crack the whip
Shape-shift and trick
The past again

I'll send you my love on a wire
Lift you up every time
Everyone, ooh
Pulls away, ooh

It's a mechanical bull at number one
You'll take a ride from anyone
Everyone wants a ride
Pulls away, ooh
From you

Ps Thank you for loving me despite everything negative about me which presses against the good that is inside of me.