Karma Police

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I remember when Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise split. I remember hearing that Nicole was devestated but despite being an emotional wreck inside, she produced what I think is one of her best pieces- Moulin Rouge. She was said to have great courage and an aura about her on and off the screen at that time. I want to tap into that power.

Look at her now- I am sure at the time when she was heartbroken she wasn't thinking, I am going to have a great life with someone else but it happened. Sometimes life grants us blessings we cannot imagine we deserve.

I put in my two weeks at work today. I can't sum up 1 1/2 years of my meaningless, degrading job into a paragraph. Most people don't understand the way I feel about my job and that is ok. I had to do what was best for me. I am trying to move this feeling or nervousness into excitement for the new opportunities which I now have. Most people have called me brave and courageous but I feel small and lost. I wish I could do more with myself and make myself into something truly amazing. I guess this is my chance.

I went to the SLC Temple grounds to read my scriptures. I didn't intend to stay for over 2 hours. One of my favorite things I saw was a girl with blue hair who threw a coin into a fountain. She had a puzzled, but determined look on her face as the coin slipped past her fingers into the water. It looked as though she had the faith necessary to make things come to pass in her life. She left in the same determined way that her face had presented itself to me.

I know I will be ok. I know there are people who love me. For some reason this has to be a struggle to find myself on my own no matter how much I want you there holding my hand and helping me.

Amy xoxo

"Mysteries"
by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

My arms are all twisted,
the only thing I miss is
I messed up, I missed it,
I messed up the missing of you

It’s getting to sound
like they've seen you around
with her

No mystery
No mystery
No mysteries

Everyone knows
the secretest code of mine
They’ll tell all my friends
and they’ll tell all my enemies too

Mystery
No mysteries
No mysteries

No mystery
No mystery
No mysteries

Take it away, Nick!

I don’t even know what it's like
not to go back to you
I don’t even know
who I like less,
You or me
You or me
You or me, oooh

Well it’s anyone’s, anyone’s guess…
It’s anyone’s, anyone’s guess…
Stress, stress
Stress, stress
Stress, stress
Stress, stress
Stress

Ps I believe I will find where my perceptions and possible solutions align with God's will this weekend at Conference