Jigsaw Falling

Let's start out with some prettiness since that's what I need in my life right now.

Kelly Osbourne and Lourdes Leon
http://www.people.com/people/gallery/0,,20530018_21057037,00.html

As you know I love fashion.

Loved this picture from failblog! Bambi is out for revenge!

I met with my Bishop on Sunday to talk about a timeline for serving a mission. My Bishop didn't want to get that far ahead yet because he wanted to make sure I really felt like I was getting the answer from my Heavenly Father to go. I told him I knew this what the path I was supposed to be on right now but it wasn't until today that I had an epiphany about that path. I told Adam and Lauren, "I had this incredible realization- life is about the journey right? I've been looking at this whole mission thing as a destination to get to- not as a journey."

And Lauren, being incredibly wise in her questions, asked me "So what will the difference be then if you view it as a journey?" And without hesitation I answered, "The ability to change course."

You see, my Bishop asked me to keep the possibility of marriage open. I cannot deny that would be an amazing adventure as well. I think a mission or marriage would be an amazing blessing in my life. I guess I wait and be patient with myself and the process that my continued striving for growth will allow me blessings and opportunities which I never dreamed and saw possible. Of course I must be open to those new paths and that's what Bishop was saying to me. That or I take a machete and hack my way through the jungle? Hmm ;)

Today I tried to enjoy the moments I had- every. single. one. Even when I was scared tonight because of a man who approached my door uninvited, I cried and realized that this is a mere moment- no, crying will not help and yes, I will be fine. I recognize every experience I have as a learning oppotunity. I no longer feel stunted because I am able to handle my life in my own hands. My problems are putty and I am the master artist.
2 Corinthians 12:9, "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."

Amy xoxo

"It's All Your Fault"
by Pink

I'd conjure up the thought of being gone
But I'd probably even do that wrong
I try to think about which way
Would I be able to and would I be afraid

Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside
Oh I don't even mind (yeah)

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

Da da dada da dada da
Da dadadadadada da dadadadadada

I'm trying to figure out what else to say (what else could I say?)
To make you turn around and come back this way
(Would you just come back this way)
I feel like we could be really awesome together
So make up your mind cause it's now or never (oh)

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not fair

I would never pull the trigger
But I've cried wolf a thousand times
I wish you could
Feel as bad as I do
I have lost my mind

It's all your fault
You called me beautiful
You turned me out
And now I can't turn back
I hold (I hold) my breath (my breath)
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air (running out of air)
And it's not fair

(Oh yeah
It's all your fault)

I hold my breath
Because you were perfect
But I'm running out of air
And it's not (it's not) fair

Ps The older I become the more I realize the less I know