Tuesday Sprinklers

My day started with my typical T, Th, Sat run with Rachel and Stephanie @ 5:45am. I won't pretend I was the courageous one who got out of bed soley on my own. After they confirmed they would be awake and ready to run on time, I knew I couldn't let my girls down. I am glad I got my butt out of bed! Whenever I run, my thoughts shift through my head with ease and control. I am glad I have this physical outlet.

Work was pleasant and I even got to see some of my old customers from MA. I found out she is an acrylic artist! She showed me her amazing abstract work and I showed her my piece that sold at Saturday's art show. We all ended up hugging because I was able to get them a small SUV for a sedan size rate. I love making people happy.

After work, Andrew told me he was making spaghetti and I quickly agreed to join him at his invitation. His dinner was legit! He cooked hamburger for the sauce while I made the garlic bread; it felt good to be in a kitchen preparing a good meal with good company. I've been thinking about why I enjoy hanging out with Jack and Andrew so much and I think it's because I feel appreciated, respected and enjoyed by them. I know they are going to get sick of me coming around every day, but for now I am enjoying our time spent hanging out.

Jack got home from work and we both rushed over to our stake ultimate frisbee match. There were a ton of people playing when we arrived! We had enough people for 6 teams! Jack and I played with Johnny and Nic's team at first. Then we were asked by David to join an All Star team if we wanted to participate. I was excited because Steph was on it and I hadn't seen her or Rachel since we arrived. I had a lot of fun playing even though I tore my knee up a little bit again... I wore leggings but no bandaid :( I am of the opinion that I can't keep worrying about getting hurt, I am going to keep playing hard. It's like my leg hurting from possibly IT Band Syndrome, I can't keep worrying about it and thinking about the pain, I just need to keep going. I will do what I can to keep myself healthy by stretching properly, eating healthy, etc. but I am not going to baby myself. Life is too short not to live every moment to the fullest. I may not be here tomorrow and I want to look back and say I played hard and enjoyed every moment and took every possible risk to be the happiest I could. I will have an enjoyable life and I may die trying to accomplish this, but at least I am dying doing what I love and becoming the best person possible. I will not let my passion for life die in the comforting confines of my home. I was meant for more than a shelf life.

With that being said, I had a great time going to Miles' birthday party with Jack and Andrew. I am glad they came and got to know some of my other friends like Miles, Shannon, Rachel, Erica, Tyler and Mike. It was fun to play the card game Nerts aka Rummy with everyone. I enjoy hanging out with my friends so much because they are the closest thing to family that I have :)

After the party on our way home, Jack said it would be fun to run through the sprinklers as he pointed outside to some turned on in the distance. He didn't think I would actually hold him to it, pull the car over and start running in the direction of the wet rockets. Wet and laughing, we ran to our hearts delight. It was fun to be carefree and happy. I am always happy and it feels so good. I wish I could bottle these moments of happiness up and open them when I need to remember... maybe that's why I keep this online journal? I wouldn't change my life for anything. I would not trade these moments for any amount of money, power, or priviledge- I hold them too dear. If I were to die tomorrow, I would say follow the Spirit always. That is the one thing that has given me the direction I have always needed. I cannot deny my life is prone to failures, falls and rough spots, but those are things I look forward to because I can do anything through Christ which strengthens me, Philippians 4:13 :) And in the end, all of these heartaches are worth the end result.

Amy xoxo

"Slipped Away"
by Avril Lavigne

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same no..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same oh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

Ps I think I found something I've been looking for as I had a deja vu moment tonight. A dream I had many years ago about a specific place was a place I was in tonight. It was magical. My night was something I cannot describe now, but I know one day I will find the words. Shocking, speechless and spine tingling!