Deeper

Long ago, a woman I knew asked me the question,"Do you want this? Because once you choose this path you can never go back." I looked into the heart of fear in that moment and chose to jump. My life has been full of jumps. Some necessary for my positive progression and others have been reckless. There are many times I have been reckless with my heart but I don't feel like today was one of those days. I jumped, not very far, but I jumped. I feel like I keep trying to force something which isn't there. I whisper to myself of things which I do and do not want but like Susan and Mike tell me- The heart wants what the heart wants. My heart aches.

Do I step deeper? Will I sink? I am thinking too much.

So I jump.

And I realize that I know how to fly.

I have wings.

Amy xoxo

"It Goes On And On"

by The Avett Brothers

I lost my fear in your arms
I lost my tears in your car
I lost my will in your candle lit eyes
And all my love in your yard
Baby would you leave me if you knew that I was making it up?
And underneath the love you got to wonder am I giving you up?
No way am I, it goes on.
Violent is the motion in my heart and in my body and mind.
And silent is the feeling that I lost but I'm determined to find.
And love is but an ocean, unrealistic notion, but I cling to her devotion, and I let it pull me down to the floor.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
I found my will in your car
I caught my tears in your arms
I found myself on that poor county drive
And found my love in your guard
Oh, Baby would you leave me if you knew that I was making it up?
And underneath the love you got to wonder am I giving you up?
No way am I, it goes on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.
It goes on, on, on, on.